I think maybe in the last five-not before the last 10 years-but the last five years where I’m more conscientious of, “Wait, that will be a task. I mean, it’s in the last probably five years. I feel like it’s always there, right? But do you know at what point in your life it became a little bit more quiet? I would imagine that it took you a long time to accept that you don’t need to chase after things that you truly don’t want. If you’re lucky enough to be like, “Okay, so I don’t have to do that,” then also try to be like, “What’s going to fill my heart? What’s going to really actually give me the opportunity to ask my deepest questions?” Yeah, and if you need to write for a magazine article to pay the rent and all that, that’s fine, too. We’re supposed to feel like we should do more and do more and compete and do the best and win. I think we’re “supposed to” as creatures who are constantly being told that we’re not enough. It feels like it comes from a feeling of deprivation, a feeling of fear that I think we’re supposed to feel. Still, there’s something ravenous that I notice if I don’t do that thing. I make a good salary and I don’t need to do things that I don’t want to do. How do you navigate this capitalistic yearning that we all struggle with?
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